So I found this blog I had started a long long time ago, I'm thinking it might help me a little to get my thoughts out somewhere , so here goes!

I find myself in a negative state of mind over a so called 'friend' and her sudden change in attitude towards me, A few weeks ago we were both at the tuesday group, (bearing in mind the agreement of her joining was that she was to study a certain book/subject which we had studied at length as a group previously, I gave her all the books, notes etc back in january when we as a group began our studies but she didnt want to join us then.) Anyway, I digress, we were having a discussion about a workshop we as a group were organizing with a 'celebrity' medium, who we had worked with before (as had the certain 'friend').
Upon my arrival that evening I had announced to the group that I was feeling 'out of sorts' and I apologised for any bad behaviour in advance! The discussions got underway, I and 2 other group members were discussing issues we had to sort out for the workshop to take place without a hitch. The 'friend' sat taking notes!!!! then she decided to put her input into the mix, I was quite unhappy about it as she wasnt even supposed to be in the group, as others had been refused because they hadnt done the studying that we had - and 'friend' supposedly had. I got quite vocal, and spoke over her, despite her saying 'Let me speak' then sitting back in a humph like a spoiled child. The evening ended and she said she intended taking the jar of money we had saved up over the weeks between us (none of 'friends' money I might add) to change it into notes, no-one had asked her to do it, she just appointed herself 'in charge',
The next day she sent me a text, saying that she was very angry at me because I wouldnt let her speak, that I always spoke over her and that I never let her get her point across. She said that she thought it was because I had problems, but then she said that that was ok, Then she said if that was just my way, then that was ok too!!!! LIKE I NEEDED HER PERMISSION!!!!
I replied to the text saying I had not intended to make her feel the way she did, I apologised profusley, now anyone that knows me, knows I am the queen of sarcasm ~ so I did go on a bit in the text with the apologies, but then as I read her text more, I dissected it and apologised for every single last point that she had hurled at me. I pressed send and waited.....she read the text immediately, as it showed up as read, but she didnt reply for 4 hrs.
Since this incident her behaviour has been more and more negative towards me. Now dont get me wrong, as a 'friend' she wont really be missed, to be quite honest, she did irritate me with her copying, wanting everything I had, did, saw, experienced, attended etc etc, also her constant texts arranging readings for her mates also got to me, as she always wanted a date and time sorted immediately regardless of any plans I might already have.
Anyway, the aforementioned workshop meetings continued, she still takes notes and emails them to all group members, (like we cant remember anything!) which annoys the hell out of me, then one of the group members was asked to design a poster for the event, straight away she piped up, ' errmm I can do that, let me know if you want any help' this member has made all the posters for previous events without any help so he just shrugged it off. I, on the other hand was seething. Then the same night after we all left she created the event on facebook. To which she then had her sister announcing MY FABULOUS SISTER IS ORGANISING THIS EVENT, IT WILL BE FAB. I was almost at exploding point by now. Then yesterday, a person we both know but is more friendly with 'friend' than me, posted under the event, that other group members should be doing something about it, not leaving it all to 'friend' as she is busy with her 4 kids and all the cakes she had booked in for the month. I had steam coming out of my ears at this point BUT I didnt bite, as I know thats what they were waiting for. Then tonight, a church that I had introduced her into advertised their open day for next week, so 'friend' immedietly posted that she was having family visit that day, but she tagged 3 of her friends and said I know you all want readings so maybe we could all go. Right now I feel like choking the cow, it was another dig to me, as I had done all the readings for her family and friends in the past.
I feel so pissed by it all, I am considering leaving the tuesday group if she continues to go after the workshop.
Last week we started revision in prep for the workshop, she should have read and done all the notes to be up to speed with the rest of us, when the group leader handed out paper for a test, she point blank refused to take part and admitted she hadnt even looked at the stuff until she sat down in group that evening. I was disgusted and I know the group leader was a little put out by it too.
I know that I cant keep a lid on this for much longer as it is on my mind most of the time, but I have to proceed with caution as she is very good at playing the victim to whoever will listen, and I refuse to be painted as the baddie when it was her not keeping to her word in the first place.

Sometimes life stinks...I know in the grand scheme of things this is of no importance, and I shouldnt even be giving her brain space, but with my present state of mind it does make me upset and angry. I feel she has no clue about how to be a true friend and that because she felt like going head to head with me because I wouldnt let her get her opinion across where she shoudnt have even been there. She is being vindictive and purposely downright nasty towards me in a very sneaky way. Oh well, you know what ? knock yourself out, you are on self destruct with your idle husband, messed up kids, and your attitude to anybody and everybody that might be doing, having, seeing, feeling anything more than you. You will get found out by your so called friends and aquaintances and they will drop you, then where will you be? Dont bother looking my way, I can do without you and I fully intend to.